The Alienist Season 1

Maybe when i was a kid i remember having a different life altogether,that or either the world itself was a less hostile place,life used to be simple back then never felt my back against the wall with words like expectations,competition,results,career.All of these were words meant for the elders and hence nothing fascinating but i find myself suffocating under the burden of these terms now that I am 19 years old and something that i find even more amazing is that the world around us is more concerned about our successes and failiures concerned is maybe incorrect concerned that we are concerned about our successes and failiures that we are aware of there  old,outdated or insufficient ways to estimate my self worth.To give itself an assurance that I am one of them that there is not even a single ounce of individuality left within me that i have indeed given up!But that is when the 9 yo version of me strikes back,he comes with his liveliness to give me a hope he tells me to disassociate myself from it



जो अपने अकेले होने का ये सच समझ में आया
अपनों की महफ़िल से भी अपना आप बचाता पाया

खैर मैंने भी तो अपने हिस्से की बेवफाई की होगी
तुम्हारी कोई बात जाके किसी को बताई होगी
पर बताते वक़्त भी किया होगा तेरा ख़याल
जाने जहाँ मेरी बेवफाई में भी मेरी बा वफाई होगी